Okay, okay – so I’ve boasted enough already…but allow me my ‘moment’…here is my little montage of awards!
I wasn’t expecting much today in all fairness, and actually posted on Facebook this morning that I just didn’t feel ‘right’…so I had to do a double take when I saw the numbers on the scales! You sometimes get weeks when you expect to do really well – and the results aren’t there – and then weeks like this when I’ve been feeling crap…and I lose 6.5lbs – our bodies are crazy things at times! This meant that I got my 10.5st award, with a total loss now of 10st 10.5lbs…so, if I can be really good, and my body is willing, I would love my next shiny next week! 😉 I ended up with a lovely basket of fruit for the Slimmer of the Week award, and also got the Greatest Loser 2013 accolade…I don’t think I’ve been so happy to be called a ‘loser’ before!
A small thing, but I even went up to the front of group to collect my Greatest Loser certificate and flowers…I normally avoid being ‘seen’ and although I play an active part in the group, I don’t like all eyes on me at the moment. But given a drink on a night out, I do think I’m Kylie and head for the nearest podium…so I’m sure there’s an exhibitionist lurking in me somewhere…she’s probably drowning under the layers of fat though, fighting to get out!
Anyway, before group commenced, I was sat chatting with a chap who had been struggling…he lost 3.5lbs and was thrilled – it seems his exercise is now finally starting to pay off and it was lovely to see him in an upbeat mood! I was also given a lovely salad by a really nice woman – she accidentally took my pictures home with her last week and was mortified, despite me trying to reassure her via our groups FB page that it really wasn’t a problem. She walked in rather sheepishly this morning and we had a little laugh over it…she said she wasn’t going to come as she’s been so worried – I’m not that scary folks, honestly! Anyway, I’d complimented one of the meals she’d posted a pic of on FB…it had a lovely looking salad on it and, as I don’t like salad much, I asked her how she made it – and bless her, she’d bought a tub of it for me to try today! It was actually nice in a way that there was the mix up over photos, as she usually sits right at the back on her own, but sat with us this week and joined in more. She hasn’t got much weight at all to lose, but is there to improve her health and learn to cook healthy food from scratch – which I admire – but some lady apparently cornered her on the way out and asked her what she was doing there as she was a perfect size already! How did she know that she didn’t use to be a lump of a woman…and that’s not the point anyway, I hate this sort of behaviour and am on a mission to find out who it was so I can make a point of it with them…politely of course!
And on that note, whilst we were talking about the Greatest Loser award, my consultant said that she gives herself a kick up the bum sometimes for moaning about having to lose a stone, given that she knows how much I have to lose. I made a point of saying to the group that it doesn’t matter how much you have to lose, your journey is as hard and as important as the next persons. And I really do believe this. I said that as I’d never been thin – or a healthy weight – probably since I was about five, I don’t know the pain that women go through of trying to get back to those days when they were svelte young things. And so, in a way, maybe it is harder for them? I don’t know – yes, I do get a little frustrated when someone joins who I think already looks perfect…I’m only human after all and I do covet the bodies of some people…not in a lustful way…but because I want their bum for my bum – I’m making it worse aren’t I?! What I mean is, that it is hard knowing that I have such a long road ahead and that some people will get to target much quicker. And it’s hard to hear people talking about their kebab and vodka binges at the weekend when the strongest drink I had was a rather minty mint tea…but I just try and focus on me and my body and what works for me. Let people get on with their journey – it’s important to them – and I’ll get on with mine. Those kebab and vodka binges won’t help with weight loss maintenance in the long run – whereas my saintly mint tea might! 😉 We all have our issues and demons but instead of focussing on other people, embrace your own journey and try not to compare – even though it’s hard. I also think that I might have inadvertently upset someone on Twitter who thinks they upset me – are you following this?! She had posted about not wanting to go to the gym and that the skinny people don’t understand etc. Now I know this person has a few stone to lose but – again, it’s one of those times that I should focus on my journey and not someone else’s – I sat and wondered that if she was worried about going to the gym at her size…and she has a gorgeous curvaceous figure that I would kill for right now!…then what was I thinking when I walked into a gym a few years ago weighing 30 odd stone?! Now again, we all have our own demons and everyone is entitled to feel a bit wibbly about things – and just because I did it when I was much, much bigger doesn’t make the fact that she didn’t want to any less valid. But it just made me sad that people put their lives on hold for the sake of a few stone – I do it; I hide away for fear of comments from others and so I am just as bad. But I just wish we could all just adopt a ‘sod it’ attitude and go for the things we want – as long as what we want isn’t a huge triple chocolate cake of course! Anyway, she did it – she went to the gym and I was so pleased…and as soon as I’ve built up my stamina and can make proper use of the facilities, then I’ll be going too!
Back to group today…the grandma has managed to convince her granddaughter to come along next week…so I feel a ‘chat’ will be pushed in my direction – which I have no problem with at all…if I can help someone then I absolutely will. I do still feel a bit silly at times offering advice when it’s asked for, but know that people do it because they want to hear how I’ve lost this chunk of weight. I don’t have all the answers – I’m not a Slimming World consultant and don’t want to take the place of one (get your backsides down to your local group!!) – but I have been a Slimming World member for many years…when fruit used to be synned – in fact when syns were called ‘sins’ – and when they used to sell these little carob covered biscuits that tasted stale! I first joined when I was fifteen years old…so sixteen years ago, and have seen the plans change and the groups evolve – so I guess I have a lot of the answers, and I know the plans pretty much inside out. But I couldn’t do it without my group and my consultant and the fabulous resources Slimming World provide…I must log into the website at least three times a day to check syns or for recipes! Anyway, the point of this little ditty was that grandma said she thinks I will get on with her granddaughter as we are ‘similar’ people…she then asked me how old I was and looked so shocked…she though I was in my early twenties and not thirty one! She said I look so fresh faced and young – I think I am a little bit in love with her now.
One of my favourite ladies in group is a wonderful Jamaican lady who has the sharpest wit and a great sense of humour. I was thrilled that she lost 2.5lbs this week, as we’d sat and talked about her trend of losing weight when she makes soup…and she headed home and made one after our chat at the end of group last week. We were all talking about canned ravioli today for some reason – and the fact that Sainsburys is the only ‘free’ one…she piped up about it being because horsemeat was very lean. And when someone else mentioned that your body stops growing at the age of eighteen, she just snorted and said that hers still was, despite her being a grandma! She really is lovely and I hope that she keeps up the good work this week.
And this is something we’ve all done – but I’m a little ashamed to say that I ‘outed’ someone in group! This lady had been sat outside chatting with me about how she’d had a terrible week and had gone over her syns quite considerably etc. Yet when the consultant asked her why she thought she’s gained, she said that she could only put it down to the fact she hadn’t drunk much water. This sent the consultant off talking about important it was to drink plenty of water…until I naughtily, and in a very innocent voice, chimed “you also mentioned to me outside that you’d gone well over your syns…did you want to talk about that, as that be another reason?” She looked at me and thanked me for reminding her – as the consultant shot me a wry grin! Now, I don’t normally care about stuff like this…we’ve all told the odd white lie in group, and we don’t think we are hurting anyone but ourselves when we do this. However, I had all of the new members sat next to me and I could see one avidly taking notes and she had written ‘WATER’ in her notebook…I didn’t want to poor new members thinking that they had to drown themselves in water for the plan to work. The fact was that this lady had cheated and was trying to create a false impression – hate me if you want – and don’t join my group…because I might out you too!! 😉 It genuinely wasn’t done maliciously, but I think I am all fired up for Slimming World…I know the plan works and for someone to sit outside and say – in front of not just me – that they had cheated considerably, and then to blame it on a lack of water…ludicrous – at least keep the naughty stuff to yourself next time!!
Right then, onto the usuals…
Sleep wasn’t my friend last night – and between crippling cramps (I’m not being a wuss…they really are awful and like nothing I’ve ever experienced) and blowing my nose or coughing, I was getting twenty bursts here and there…despite being on extra strong prescribed inbuprofen! I jumped straight in the shower this morning, which was a mistake, as I almost passed out and had to shout my other half for help…I should have eaten first as I think – TMI WARNING! – the blood loss, lack of sleep and fuzzy head cold was not a good combination! Anyway, I sorted myself out and headed off to the horses – it was such a beautiful morning and it was lovely to see them leap out of the stables and run off…albeit into a muddy field. Oh, lady night the horse next door escaped into our field and was happily grazing with our Shetland on the field we are trying to rescue for the summer grazing! Her owner wasn’t pleased when I called him and told him to come and move her…nor was he happy when I asked him when he was getting the fencing sorted! I don’t bloody care – he keeps telling me he’ll fix the fence and never does…and I don’t know if he worms his horse or what he does…I don’t want my little babies injured and I will get all ‘WLB’ on him if I need to! 😉 I wasn’t there at the time as my Mum does the evening shift, but she did say he wasn’t very talkative! If he’s rude to her though I will definitely have a word, as I’m not having that either. Anyway, the horses were out, and happy and very interested in my nose blowing activity in the car…my you gets horse is a very curious faced little thing and kept looking over to see what all the fuss was about – bless him! I’m going to take them some of my Slimmer of the Week fruit up tomorrow…they love it when I bring it home for them. So then it was off to group – during which I almost fainted again – and then it was a careful drive to Asda and then home…with my other half ushering me into PJs and making me rest. Hopefully this cold will break soon and I can resume some sort of ‘normal’ life…well, normal for me at least!
Breakfast: Two kiwis and a banana.
Lunch: Pastrami and cheese sandwich (HEA and HEB + 3 syns for extra big bread slices!)
Dinner: Uncle Bens golden vegetable rice (2.5 syns), chicken tikka chunks and salad.
Snacks: Pom Bears! (5 syns per bag…so 30 for the six I ate :-()
I wasn’t really in a proper food mood today…I just knew I wanted some crisps and that only Pom Bears would do it for me! I have been resisting the crap food whilst I’ve been ill, but do allow myself a bit of over synning on my weigh in day. Breakfast contained some Vit C packed kiwis, and lunch was just a quick sandwich as I needed something to eat…had forgotten to take my diabetes tablets this morning! Dinner was as a result of the lovely lady in group and her salad…so we made something that fitted with this – and it was lovely. So way over my syns today’s with 35.5 – but I’m not bothered as there are plenty of times in the week when I don’t use them…so it all balances out in the end!
Still no activity…just keeping an eye on myself after that near fainting activity today!!
Loads of squishy, getting better, hugs!
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
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