I’m sure most of you have already seen this, but I’m proud and so am going to show it you again! Look what I got at this mornings weigh in…
I lost 4.5lbs, taking my total loss to 141.5lbs or 10st 1.5lbs. I like working it out in pounds as it sounds like loads – well, it is loads…nearly a third of the way through my journey. Yes, it is daunting thinking about the total amount I need to lose, but I am getting there!
Upon reflection, I cannot believe how much of a difference this loss has made to my life. In fact, it has saved my life – and that’s not just Weight Loss Bitch drama – it’s the truth! I was on a collision course for a heart attack and I genuinely don’t think I would have made it to my 35th birthday. Sitting in the weight loss surgery psychologists office, in tears, telling him I was no longer a binge eater – which was a lie, just so I could get his approval for the surgery – something just ‘clicked’. He is a very direct chap – I’ve blogged about him – and he basically told me to get a grip. So I did, and I started taking Slimming World seriously.
Not knowing how I had managed it, I somehow sailed through my twenties without any weight-related health complications. My blood pressure was fine, as was my cholesterol. Blood tests showed no issues with liver function, no signs of diabetes. I was holding down a great job, earning more than I care to think about now, and sailing through life on a sad little boat with just me and my food at the centre of my world!
As I turned thirty, things started to go downhill. I had been experiencing painful bleeding which lasted for over nine months continually, I had found a lump in my breast, I was struggling to sleep, I was constantly thirsty and tired and needing a wee all of the time! Further investigation gave the lump in my breast the all clear, but I was diagnosed with a condition called atypical complex endometrial hyperplasia – and found out that at least 22% of patients go on to develop cancer. I had numerous cancerous changes and was prescribed hormone tablets, with the possibility of surgery to remove my womb if I didn’t lose the weight and therefore improve the condition. I was also diagnosed with diabetes which was confirmed at the end of July last year. The tablets I was prescribed were horrendous to begin with, and I spent at least a fortnight in bed ill – with stomach upsets, sickness and cramps. I also have to inject each day, along with taking four tablets. My blood sugar levels were 17.7mmol. During investigations for the weight loss surgery, I was also told that they believed I might have sleep apnea.
So what has changed? Well, at my horrendous Valentines day appointment – horrendous because it lasted for over five hours! – I was told that I could come off the medication – pending the results of my biopsy and smear test – for my endometrial hyperplasia, as he was thrilled with the improvement. As long as I continue to lose weight, and the biopsy results are fine, I should be able to stop this medication for good. My blood sugar levels are now in the region of 4-7 each day – which is considered normal, and my consultant is hoping to reduce the medication that I take for this too. And I’ve also been told that they no longer consider sleep apnea as an issue that I have.
All of the above medical reasons should be enough to keep me going, but believe it or not, the hyperplasia was diagnosed long before I got my arse I to gear…even the threat of a hysterectomy and cancer did not shock me into doing something about my weight! Shocking really! There’s the old saying though about leading a horse to water yet not being able to make it drink…even though it seems perfectly obvious to other people that something should have been done by me to tackle my weight, I wasn’t ready.
Losing just 10% of your body weight can bring huge benefits to your health – this is why Slimming World celebrate this milestone with their ‘Club 10′ award. People start to see improvements in their blood pressure, reduce their likelihood of developing diabetes – or even reduce the medication they are taking for it, lower cholesterol levels, less aches and pains in your joints, lack of breathlessness, increased mobility, happier mood, and – most importantly for me – an improvement in fertility issues and the reduction of the likelihood of developing obesity related cancers. What is not to like? I have also just calculated that I have lost 23% of my starting weight – how mental is that?!
I am going to take some time over the next few days to reflect at how this weight loss has positively affected my life. Having a long way still to go, I think it is important to take stock and remind myself of why I absolutely cannot allow myself to slip backwards. It is not about being able to wear a nice dress – yet, or lovely make up – yet, or to go out socialising – yet; it is about saving my life and giving me something to look forward to in my thirties! Walking up the stairs is a little easier – it used to feel like an Everest mission. Reaching my feet is easier – I used to have to ask someone else to cut my toenails, not great for your self-esteem! Getting out of bed is easier, getting dressed is easier, driving is easier…everything is getting that bit easier. It is still not perfect, and there is still a hell of a long way to go. I do get low at some points, and I’ll talk about that in another blog, but I feel so positive at the moment and this is what I want to focus on – this is what keeps me going.
Someone asked me today what changed. Why am I now able to do it, when before I kept losing some, then putting it back on, losing a bit more, putting it back on?! The simple answer is that I stopped seeing Slimming World and healthy eating as a punishment. It used to feel like a prison…I couldn’t eat what I wanted to eat, I couldn’t do what I wanted to do – sit on the sofa and eat! – I couldn’t do what had gotten me so bloody fat in the first place. So I hated it if truth be told, I felt like I HAD to go in order to keep people happy and I felt like I had to do it as it was something that people expected of a morbidly obese person. I now realise that Slimming World is the key to getting my life back. Yes, it is hard at times. Yes, it means changing the way in which I do things. Yes, it means compromising. But my goodness, it will be worth it when I am at target!
Anyway, that’s enough of me waxing lyrical about the delights of Slimming World – let’s crack on and look at today’s usuals…
It was a quick dash to the stables this morning as we had a couple of extra chores to do there before heading to group. Once finished, we went to group – I got my award, woohoo! – and we then stayed chatting to my lovely consultant for about an hour. As I hadn’t eaten much, I started to feel funny and told her that I needed to head off. I just about made it to car before feeling like I was going to pass out – stupid…should have taken a post-weigh in snack with me! Once I’d sorted myself out, we headed off to Asda and then it was home for the day…so rather dull really!
Breakfast: Banana – followed by another one after group as I nearly fainted!
Lunch: Chicken, noodle and veggie soup.
Dinner: Chicken fillet burgers with cheese, syn free chips and homemade coleslaw.
Snacks: Skips – six lovely packets!!
I am so pleased that my eating yesterday has not affected my weight loss…I think I’ve cracked my habit of pre-weigh in near starvation now! I also think I’ve nearly cracked my treat day technique of stuffing in everything I couldn’t have! A combination of a hot room at group this morning, and an after group chat with my consultant left me feeling really woozy and I nearly fainted. Luckily, I had my Slimmer of the Week fruit handy and so had a banana to help me out, along with a big glug of water. I then felt like I wanted comfort food, which at the moment means chicken noodle soup – so that was lunch covered, and very tasty it was too! Unfortunately a new KFC shop has opened opposite the group and regular readers will know that this is my food nemesis. So I decided that we would have chicken fillet burgers with a little Cajun seasoning on, and some chips and coleslaw…all SW friendly. This meant that I could use my syns for my Tuesday crisps and also treat myself to an extra roll for my dinner!
Exercise: None! ;-(
Today is my scheduled rest day, and I do enjoy them! I am aiming to get back on the treadmill tomorrow, and need to up the time again as Wednesday marks day one of my exercise week…hoping to survive this given the lack of treadmill activity last week. So watch this space and see how I get on tomorrow.
That’s it then folks,
Loads of squishy hugs and happiness!
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
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