1lb on today…and I think my reaction was to laugh initially!
Seriously…what more do I have to do to get a bloody decent weight loss?!
So I laughed a little, I frowned a bit, might have stamped a foot slightly, and then got on with my job of welcoming everyone else to group and signing them in.
My consultant wondered if my lipodema might be playing up due to the hot weather…but that’s an issue with fat cells and not water retention…so I can’t really put it down to that.
I have come off some hormone medication recently – which was for hyperplasia and cancerous cells – probably a month or so ago – and am awaiting my first ‘lady moment’ in a couple of years…too much information for you there. Add to this the hormonal issues they already think I have…and it might be the reason, but it might not be. I will be seeing a specialist in September about it all.
In terms of my past week – I have been on plan, exercised as usual – the workouts vary each week so that my body never gets used to what I am doing – had good fun…signed up for a 100km bike ride for charity. Feck it – it is what it is and I am okay…genuinely. I will keep going and see what happens eventually!
What was interesting was that yesterday my psychologist and I were discussing the phases of weight loss. He classes me as an expert when it comes to ‘Phase A’…bloody brilliant when it comes to ‘Phase B’…and just about to discover what ‘Phase C’ has in store for me.
I think he means that the first year was tough, but easy in the sense that the bigger you are the more weight you shed initially. So seeing those numbers dropping spurs you on – and this stage is about establishing new habits, but more importantly about making baby-steps…not changing eating habits so drastically that it sends you off track.
The second phase is about solidifying your new habits and building upon them…maybe learning about what your body really wants and observing your eating habits changing. Picking up some new health habits – like my exercising. Working on strengthening the mind.
This phase that I am entering is about all of the above…and goodness knows what else!
It’s quite exciting really.
If I think about where I was two years ago…well, I had just been diagnosed with diabetes and weighed over 41st. One year ago I was still suffering with health issues and not yet a gym goer. And now I exercise regularly and love it, make better food choices without having to force myself to do so…and I get to work with and support other people in changing their lives.
So I can’t really fecking whinge about putting 1lb on can I? Life is good and it will get better.
What was also interesting was that the psychologist – a very experienced chap who has been doing this job for years – said that I was one of five, maybe six, people who have made the changes that I have made…amongst the 60,000 or so patients that he has seen over the years. Now, I am not sure that these figures are wholly accurate…but it means that I might be 0.01% of his patient-base…so I like to think of myself as ‘special’! Haha…that’s one word to describe me!
Seriously though, I do appreciate how far I have come and what a massive achievement it is to lose 21st (okay…20st 13lbs!) without surgical intervention. The issue for me is that I still have so far to go and I get frustrated. I have a feeling that this ‘Phase C’ might contain a few more moments of frustration, so I need to learn how to deal with that!
That’s my words of wisdom for today. I am off to relax.
The rest of the day has been fab. I met up with a coaching client and her daughter. They came to meet the horses and have a picnic. This lady had helped me out right back at the beginning of my journey…and I helped her get her mind in the right place in return. My niece and nephew came to the stables too – which meant the paddling pool was well used today. It was a lovely afternoon…apart from my little Shetland bucking my niece off! I got a lovely ‘thank you’ card and a box of Nakd goodies too! I didn’t make it to the gym given timescales…as I had stayed behind at the end of group to chat to my consultant and her new team developer. Then I had to get the stables and ponies sorted before the picnic. This evening has been spent ordering bike accessories…I just need to buy the flipping bike now!
Today’s food looked like this…
Breakfast: Boiled eggs and a banana.
Lunch: Quorn chicken with couscous and veggies.
Dinner: Asda meatfree burgers with cheese (2 x HEA, 2 x HEB and 2 syns) with watercress and sweet potato wedges.
Snacks: Nakd goodies (21 syns).
Exercise: Stable and horsey chores.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx