I apologise…I promised that today I would be in a better mood but sadly it is on a par with yesterday’s tantrums and histrionics! 😉
It’s the cold. I am a grotty bitch when I have a cold. I didn’t get much sleep and I can’t breathe properly…and let’s face it, breathing is kind of fecking important!
So I woke up in a grump and decided against going and squeezing in a last chance workout before getting on the scales. This pissed me off. When I decide to do something I get all annoyed if I can’t or don’t. I could have gone if I really wanted to…I am trying to learn the art of being kind to myself and knowing when to push and when to relax. I didn’t think that a hour of cardio would be that helpful when breathing was difficult…I thought I should save some energy for tomorrow’s personal training session. I still pissed myself off though.
The scales were kinder to me today. 3.5lbs off. So I think that’s 19.5lbs of the 38lbs back off…which is over half of my gain gone. My goal now is to get past the weight loss I had reached…so I need to lose 19lbs to get there. 19lbs in 12 weeks…as I really want it for Christmas. There might be another tantrum if not…and I am boring myself with my mood at the moment! 😉
Group was good but fecking annoying. Pizza Lady was on form again – interrupting a discussion my consultant was having with someone to randomly ask about whether or not salt causes weight gain as she had been told that it does…and she asked something about sushi as she had been eating it without synning it. Now, I love her…group would not be the same without her…but for fecks sakes she irritates me at the same time. She eats without thinking. Every bloody week she is asking about the syns in something she has already eaten. Now, only in absolute emergency situations do I eat without knowing the syns in what I am sticking in my gob. The whole point of joining Slimming World is that you cook the majority of your meals from scratch from the free and superfree food items…and if you don’t use these items then you need to syn them and you need to assume that all processed food has syns in. That means anything that hasn’t had their feathers plucked and their bits stuck back up their arse in a little bag, or something that has been pulled from the ground or off a tree and still has bits of earth on it – anything that has been combined with other ingredients should be treated with caution! 😉 Incidentally, sticking bits up an arse was on my mind during group today! 🙂
Plus, you have a fecking book…you have syns online…you have the Slimming World app…there is no excuse not to know the syns really.
Anyway, I am not even going there as I will get all hot and bothered…and the fecking cold is doing that job for me. I need to go and meditate or something.
After group my Mum and I went to see her horse. We are considering getting a sharer for her – a nice experienced rider who can get her going for my Mum over the winter. And who can get her used to being ridden for when I get back on board too.
We then popped to the tack and feed shop and I stocked up on horse food.
Then we went to see my boys who are all looking pretty bloody gorgeous at the moment! 🙂
And then I caught up with my sister and her hubby and the kids.
And I have just told Mr WLB that I need to watch some Dexter to improve my mood. Yes, a programme about a serial killer cheers me up. I promise I will meditate! 😉
Today’s food looked like this…
Breakfast: Banana and boiled eggs.
Lunch: Jacket potato, beans, cottage cheese, and salad.
Dinner: Mixed bean and veggie ratatouille with rice and cheese (2 x HEA).
Snacks: Peanut butter and banana pittas (2 x HEB and 18 syns).
Exercise: Not much today…feeling too sorry for myself! 😉
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
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