I am not quite sure where to start with tonight’s post.
I wanted to try and communicate how amazing my holiday was but am not sure that I will do it justice.
Now, this isn’t a case of me doing that typical social media thing of only giving you the highlights…which makes you feel shit in the process – you know the types…photos of posh cars, nice houses, posh handbags…and a shitty life behind closed doors that they never share with anyone, making you think that everything is rosy and that your life is inferior! 😉
What this is about is trying to say and show that there is always a way of making progress.
I was 43st 5.5lbs. There was no way on earth at that size that I thought I would be rock climbing, or canoeing, or clay pigeon shooting, or using air rifles, or cross bows after climbing a hill to reach the hut we were shooting from, or carriage driving…a horse pulling me along!
At 43st 5.5lbs I used to go to bed each night worried about whether or not I would wake up the following morning. I never thought that I would shift 20st without surgery. I didn’t think I would ever be able to lead the kind of life that I longed for.
I struggled to wash myself – Mr WLB had to help me wash, get dressed, go to the bathroom. I couldn’t go out and shop for myself. I could hardly stand up for more than a few seconds at a time. I would fall asleep in the middle of conversations as I had sleep apnoea. I had to keep a bucket downstairs for bathroom emergencies as I couldn’t climb the stairs quick enough. I had given myself cancerous cells…type 2 diabetes.
I thought that I was a lost cause.
Yet at 23st 6lbs I have had the most amazingly fabulous holiday! 🙂
I thought that I had to reach my target weight before I could do the kind of stuff that I have been doing. Bullshit! You CAN have a fabulous life regardless of where you are on your journey.
Enough of my preaching though. My life was pretty shitty…now it’s not. I am nowhere near my target weight. I don’t have a perfect life – far from it. But I have a life that I love…I have fun and am doing things that make it even more fun! I have created a life like this…started appreciating what I have and what I can do regardless of my weight.
First up was the climbing. Despite my desire for anonymity, I have decided to share a picture of myself in a harness. I have been told that harnesses are not flattering at the best of times. I kind of resemble a TellyTubby in fetish gear I think! 😉 I trust you enough now to share my 23st 6lbs ass with you though…
…it was amazing! I thought that I wouldn’t get past the first footholds…before I knew it, I was halfway up the wall. The belay – a lovely lady – had no issues in helping me down or dealing with my weight. So feck anyone who tells you that you can’t do something like this…strap a harness on (no, not of the fetish kind!) and get climbing.
I was a little wary. I am not good with heights. I kind of wondered why I signed up for it…it was one of those brave ‘feck it’ moments I think. I had no problem fitting into the harness. I was taught the rope work. I helped my niece climb and then it was my turn. It was amazing up to the point that I had to come down. I started to climb down and was told to trust the harness and ‘sit in it’ and bounce down like you see people on TV doing. The first ‘bounce down’ attempt was a little stunted…but the second descent was such good fun! At no point did I feel unsafe or like I was going to fall.
If you want to join me one day, I’d be happy to set something up. If you want to go and try it at the place I did, then I lost my climbing virginity at Ice Factor up in Kinlochleven. They were a fabulous bunch and I will definitely be going back! 🙂
The best thing about my time climbing was the fact that I climbed with my niece. My niece, my nephew, my Mum, my sister, and my brother in law all saw me going for it…living life as I want to live it rather than hiding away. It was fecking marvellous! 🙂
Next up was my canoeing. Wow – what an experience. I don’t like boats and I am not that keen on cold water – so this was a definite challenge. I emailed first and explained that I was worried about fitting into the buoyancy gear but I got a lovely reply from Anita and Chris to say that it would be fine…and it was…
…it was more than fine – it was amazing. Mr WLB and I had an amazing day – it was so lovely to be sharing an activity with him. Last year, he went kayaking whilst I climbed a hill…this year, I got to do both of these with him…I didn’t feel side-lined.
Chris, the owner and guide, was so lovely. He has a great sense of humour, loads of experience, and lots of local knowledge – so not only did I get a great introduction to canoeing, I also got some great information about the local area and sightings of birds of prey, and otters, and we were followed by seals for a couple of miles too – it was a good giggle.
Here is Chris from Wilderness Guides – a fabulous chap!
I paddled for hours – we set off at around 10.30pm and had a 30 minute lunch and arrived back on shore at about 4.15am. It was an amazing day – apart from Mr WLB taking things a little too easy at the back of the canoe…I did most of the paddling! It was a fabulous workout though, so I can’t complain! It was wonderful to be out on the water. So peaceful. You kind of felt connected to the wilderness if that makes sense? I am going to be heading out next year for an overnight camping trip with Chris hopefully…I have the canoeing bug!
Chris kept the day at a lovely pace too. We paddled lots but had time to admire the views and take photos and have a chit chat along the way. It is definitely doable for people of all abilities.
Then I was in the capable hands of Charles at Glencoe Clay Shooting – a fabulous target centre in the Highlands…not far from Kinlochleven. This was such good fun – I really got to let my Angelina Jolie/Lara Croft side out here! 🙂
Then it was time to bring out the air rifles. I cracked a few tin cans and all of my target shots were on the paper. I was the only one who didn’t use a bipod stand to rest the air rifle on…so even though Mr WLBs shots were on target and he got an extra point…I reckon I can claim that round as well! 🙂
Clay shooting was the final activity of the day. This was amazing. Beautiful shotguns. Which is a weird thing to say about a shotgun but it had beautiful engravings on it…and they packed a punch! Again, we had some practice shots. I was so keen that I kept shooting a little too quickly…and no rude jokes about shooting too quickly please! 😉 As soon as I slowed down, I started hitting the clays. I won this too! 😉
I think I am so eager to try things now that I can, that it made me a little trigger happy. Charles is such good fun too. He had a real giggle with us all and kept us nice and safe. He has so much knowledge – which is what you want – and was a fab coach. We all managed to hit clays…and none of us thought we would!
Finally, I had a lovely little carriage ride with Claire, the lady who owns the cottage we stay at. She has horses and knows how much I love them and that I can’t wait to get back in the saddle, so she treated me to a carriage ride. It was lovely – a fabulous way to see the local scenery. I adore this lady! 🙂
Anyway. That’s it from me. I am back home and am still a little high and giddy with the feelings of living my life. I still have a very long way to go – take another look at my arse in that harness…it’s clear to see that I have a long way to go. The fact is that I am able to do more at this size than I ever thought or could imagine. It makes me incredibly excited for my future. It makes me incredibly proud of my efforts so far – of sticking with healthy eating and Slimming World. It makes me thankful for my amazing personal trainer who has helped me use my body in a way that gave me the confidence to try these activities…to believe in my ability. It makes me thankful for the love and support of my family and friends.
And as for anyone who has an issue with me or my fat arse in a harness…feck ’em! Seriously. You have to go out there and enjoy life right now. You only get one attempt as far as I am concerned…the reincarnation thing is interesting, but you can’t bank on getting a second chance! 😉
I will shut up now for fear of becoming a Facebook Wanker who only tells you about the good stuff…
On that note…negatives. The negatives of these activities are that future holidays will be more expensive as I will want to try new activities each day! I broke my Thermos flask whilst canoeing…but that’s because it was a crap flask! I had an argument with Mr WLB whilst canoeing as he was being a lazy bugger and couldn’t navigate properly…so make sure you get a good rudder man! Seriously…the negatives were diddly squat in comparison to how amazing I felt just being out there and doing stuff that I never dreamt possible.
The after effect is that I am going to try climbing locally, and canoeing, and have found a rifle club, and am looking at getting some help in teaching one of my horses how to pull a little cart…so the holiday glow will continue!
I really am off now as I have to prep for a second interview that I have tomorrow! It’s also my first weigh in after my holiday…let’s see what the scales have to say about my visits to the Oban Chocolate Company and the green seafood hut.
Today’s food looked like this…
Exercise: 60 minutes PT – weighted squats, boxing, a sub 2 minute 500m row…all sorts of fun things! 🙂
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
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