I feel like I am a teeny tiny bit famous tonight! Slimming World officially tweeted my little old blog to over 89,000 people – eeek! 😉
It’s a bit weird for me. Mr WLB was the one who persuaded me to blog – so you have him to blame for my ramblings and the insight into the mind of a fat girl! I thought that maybe a handful of people might be able to relate to me and my musings…but it seems that us losers have a fair bit in common – and the ‘number’ you start at or want to shift has bugger all to do with it.
Irrespective of size, we all share some common demons – whether that be an insatiable love of chocolate, or emotional eating, or a seemingly bottomless pit for a stomach. Some of us wrestle with those demons better than others. Some of us take a very direct route to target, others take the scenic route.
It doesn’t matter how you get to where it is you want to get to.
Me – well, I have tried both the direct and the scenic…I reckon there is a healthy medium to be found! 🙂
As long as you are making changes that feel good to you, it doesn’t matter. I guess this is one of the reasons why I love Slimming World. There is so much flexibility in the plan – you can be a can opening queen or a cook from scratch clean eater. You can use your syns for alcohol or avocado. You can have stodgy bread and cheese or oats and almond milk for your healthy extras. You can enjoy a good curry and a kebab or you can stick with a chicken and wholegrain rice salad. The choice is yours.
Ultimately, the responsibility for your weight is yours too.
We can all sit around and lament over the fact that food manufacturers make food taste so good that it becomes addictive. We can all sit around and complain that the NHS doesn’t offer enough help with our ‘mind’ when it comes to their weight loss offerings. We can all moan that sports clothes don’t fit ginormous bums. I have done all of these things!
Yet with the help of Slimming World and my amazing personal trainer and the love of family and friends who all want the best for me, I have been able to make changes. We all need help and support. But I do think that sometimes we put barriers in our own way – I am determined to keep breaking down barriers and will reach my target!
Anyway, enough of all that. My original blog post was going to contain quite a few swear words…isn’t it typical that Slimming World decide to share my blog on the very same day that I feel the need to swear lots?! 😉
The ‘bollocks’ title is as a result of two things. The first being that I have a feeling I talked too much during my second interview yesterday…and whilst I do want them to know that I like to talk and to choose me based on my witty personality (yes, that was sarcasm!) I can’t help but kick myself as I am sure fellow HR peeps that I am competing against were all professional and suited and booted and fecking perfect. So I have been in a ‘bollocks to it’ kind of mood today!
Bollocks for the second thing…I remembered today that I had set myself a silly ‘Stoptober’ challenge of not using the word ‘cunt’!
I failed miserably!
I am not a fan of setting overly unachievable and unrealistic goals…and as it’s a word I use fairly regularly when driving and describing fellow road-users, I just don’t think it will ever happen. It’s even a word I use to describe those people who send me emails telling me that I am ‘ugly, evil, and disgusting’ for using such a word! 😉 Haha – fuck it…I like swearing and I am never likely to give up that vice.
Give me a little something…considering the changes I have made I think the odd f-bomb and c-bomb can be forgiven! 😉
Right then…what shall I ramble about today?
It’s been a great training day. I had a good first session back after my holiday on Monday – which involved my first session of weighted squats…50kgs was my weight for those lifts. So my legs have been burning for a couple of days and today involved more squats. It also involved some rowing, some TRX work, Step, more weights, Kettlebell work…it was packed and varied and great fun. It was hard work. I sat chatting with my trainer – who is ace! – afterwards and he mentioned that my effort inspires him. He said he looks at what I do and thinks that he would have stopped for a breather, but that I carry on.
Now, it was a nice to think that I could possibly inspire someone in as good physical condition as he is in. It got me thinking…
I have an issue with being fat. I feel like I have a point to prove at times. I always feel like I have to push myself harder just so that people don’t roll their eyes and think, ‘Ha, typical…the fat girl’s having a rest!’ I did it on holiday too. When I was climbing I could see this chap watching me. I have no idea what he was thinking, but in my mind I assumed a negative, and so I climbed higher to prove a point.
Sometimes I think having these thoughts often spurs me on. I try and use these feelings to give me a positive advantage – turning my fears and paranoia into action. It can get a bit overwhelming though. Today during training I could see a chap watching me so I was determined to do my 40 Kettlebell swings without a rest…I did them…but almost died! 😉
Anyway – I have rambled enough…I added the first bit after seeing Slimming World had tweeted me…I thought about removing the ‘bollocks’ and the ‘cunt’ but then thought that anyone who reads further than tonight will probably see that I am not afraid of a swear word and they can decide for themselves whether to join you in being a regular reader of my ramblings! 🙂
I am off to watch Dexter!
Today’s food looked like this…
Breakfast: Hot smoked salmon, scrambled eggs, wilted spinach, and cherry tomatoes.
Lunch: Smoked chicken and grilled veggies.
Dinner: Carrot, butternut squash, and coriander soup with toasted pitta pizzas (2 x HEA and 2 x HEB).
Snacks: Black Forest berries and fat-free Greek yogurt.
Exercise: 60 minutes PT.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
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