The past couple of weeks have been difficult…as you well know! 🙂
Instead of focusing on all of that, I want to try and pick out some highlights of the past couple of months.
First up is the fact that I am 5.5lbs away from losing a total of 300lbs. This is pretty massive for me. When I was at my biggest I never imagined being able to do this without weight loss surgery. I was told that it was my only option…yet here I am, almost 300lbs lighter. All I had to do was take the first step, literally and figuratively. Slow and steady…and here I am – in a very different place to where I was a couple of years ago!
I guess my holiday activities need to make the list too really. Canoeing…rock climbing…eating lovely seafood! 😉 I went hill walking…bike riding…walking in a storm…on a boat trip…sunk to my knees in sand on the beach! October was a good month – three weeks away with my wonderful family. I even managed to lose 10.5lbs whilst I was there!
Spinning. I tried spinning. This is a gym class that I have seen so many people doing and always wanted to join in. I always imagined that I would have to be much closer to my target weight before being able to join in. Have you seen people leaving a spin class? They look drowned in sweat and half-dead…although this is exactly how Mr WLB described me after my PT session this morning! 😉 My trainer showed me how to use the spin bikes and I really enjoyed it. Hopefully I will be joining in on a class with others soon.
My coaching. I adore coaching. Completing my course at Warwick Uni was great. First up, I was in a learning environment – and I am a learning geek! I was mixing with people when I was worried about how I might be received. I met some fabulous people on the course and have gone on to coach some fabulous clients.
I could go on…there are actually lots of highlights from the past few months. Sometimes, when things are tough, it’s hard to remember the good things. Yes Mr WLB is struggling with his business and work at the moment. It won’t always be like that. I want to find work closer to home – as the practicalities of working in London on a long term basis will prove difficult…I need to remain focused on my health and fitness…and spending all of my time commuting – well, it’s time I could spend in the gym, or with my family, or prepping healthy food.
The thing is, I am so full of energy and enthusiasm now. The difficult times won’t last…my boiler has been fixed (ish!)…my roof will get fixed eventually…my Mum now has a lovely new foster placement…my horses are all living together…my family are just amazing…Mr WLB has secured work that will cover our commitments…life is pretty good.
You know me though – I just want to go out there and grab life by the balls! 😉
I feel as if I have stood on the sidelines watching. I kind of feel a little like that about my career. I am very good at what I do…I have good recommendations and references and keep in touch with a lot of my former bosses and colleagues who have put work my way. The thing is, I don’t feel as if I ever gave all of myself to my work. Not in a professional sense – I always worked so bloody hard…in fact, as soon as I started treating myself as a work project, life started to change! I mean in a personal sense – so the fear of being judged by people meant that I might not have fully engaged in the networking side of my role…enjoying nights out with colleagues and Christmas parties and the like. I would attend social functions but always want to blend in with the wallpaper. I feel now that I can offer that side of myself to my employer too…
Oh I don’t know. I am rambling now. It’s exciting looking for a new job. I am hoping that my interview today went well. I really liked the person I would report in to – she had a good way about her. I had also checked her out on LinkedIn and she has a great background. I have generally reported in to Operations Directors or HR Directors and so to report into someone with an out and out resourcing and recruitment background…well, I think I could learn lots. I liked the sound of the team set-up. I think I could make a really good contribution to the team, and the company appeals too. I won’t wax lyrical for too much longer as she did jot down my website address…I am now concerned and thinking about going through all of my old blog posts and removing all swear words…but that would take me far too long! 😉
I will point out – just in case you read this potential future boss – that whilst I swear in my anonymous blog, I rarely swear in person…well, maybe in my head every now and again! My musings and ramblings get quite emotional at times…it’s better to write emotionally and anonymously than it is to binge-eat – well…better for me, my local takeaway and Asda store probably don’t agree as their sales have dropped since I started writing! 😉
Right then – that’s enough of that – part of me hopes that future boss lady won’t read this…but part of me hopes she does – and realises how hard I have worked to turn my life around. They would be lucky to have me I think! 😉 Onto the usuals now…
Food. I am having food issues at the moment. It’s a bit of a flipping struggle at this time of year isn’t it? So many delicious treats in the shops. The thing is, I managed to go and buy clothes in New Look the other day. This has never happened before. In fact, I remember going into a New Look store as a teenager with my friends, and someone said, ‘They won’t have anything in here to fit you!’ and laughed at me…who’s laughing now hey?! Yes, it might have been the plus-sized range that I fitted into but it opens up a whole new world of shopping opportunities.
I wore a new top and jacket to my interview today. My niece and nephew saw me when I got back, so I asked for their opinion. Apparently my niece wouldn’t give me the job…she thought that my clothes were boring and suggested rainbow jeans, a bright pink top, and a multi-coloured cardigan…she is six…and I think she wants a children’s TV presenter as an auntie! My nephew, who is just four, said that he would give me a job but that I couldn’t work in the mud in the clothes I had on…and that I could stay in the office and ring poorly people instead. I have no idea what job he has in mind for me! 🙂
So the food thing. I am now asking myself whether the chocolate puddings and treats of the festive season will mean more to me than fitting in to new clothes? Of course the answer is ‘no’…but at that moment you want the food, well, it’s hard isn’t it?!
I have resisted so far but it’s taking a fair bit of will power. I think it takes a fair bit of will power from anyone at this time of year, so I am trying to stop seeing my eating as all or nothing. It doesn’t have to be on or off…I can eat on a sliding scale if I need to…some days at the better end of the scale and occasionally at the not so good end of the scale. As long as I remain on the downwards trend in clothes sizes then I will be happy! 🙂
I really am going to head off now. I am going to the Royal Shakespeare Company tomorrow night to see ‘Christmas Truce’ all about the football match between the Germans and the British in the war. Mr WLB has been looking forward to this for ages…I have a feeling that I will need to take tissues as I am a soppy git and will end up in tears.
Today’s food looked like this…
Exercise: 60 minutes PT.
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
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