I have a feeling that I need to share a little something with you, as it’s been bothering me for a few weeks.
If you are particularly eagle-eyed you might have noticed that my usual ‘goodbye’ has been missing for the past few blog posts. I used to finish with a little nudge about mine and Herbie Hybrids challenge…
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More recently it’s just been a ‘thank you for reading’…and this is because my bike challenge might be off.
There, I said it! I have been worried about telling you as you have been so supportive of me.
Herbie and I began training again at the beginning of the year. I was out on the roads – in a ditch at one point – around a reservoir, in a park…but there are certain lady-related issues that have been occurring which mean that I am being advised not to take part – this year.
I feel like a failure, I feel frustrated, I am angry…but none of these feelings are helping me make progress – in any way. I kind of feel that my recent struggles have had something to do with me worrying about not being able to ride…
The thing is, it was lady-related issues that made me sign up for the challenge in the first place. I was at risk of a hysterectomy in my late-20s due to cancerous cells and it was a very tough couple of years getting myself sorted. So I wanted to help support people and to show my appreciation for the help and support that I got.
As a result of these issues I have to go and see my ‘downstairs’ man every now and again. I am hoping that he will give me the go-ahead to ride…but all indications are that I am going to have to postpone.
All of the udder cream, padded pants, saddle changes, varying positions, incremental training and anything else that has been recommended will not do anything to get me around that course.
I have spoken to the organisers and they have said that I can give my place to someone else…I don’t want to. So I explained why I was having to postpone and they have told me that I can ride net year instead. Next year it will be then!
I understand if you are a bit miffed with me – trust me, I am miffed enough for the both of us – my flipping body is both wonderful and frustrating at the same time.
On that note, I am going to love you and leave you…and post this before I wimp out. I have been dreading telling you!
Thank you for reading,
Weight Loss Bitch xxx