I started writing about ‘Happy Places’ – but I realised that I wasn’t entirely happy this evening for some reason and thought it might not be a good idea to share my views on that right at this moment…I am not sure that sitting in the Highlands with a decent sized glass of Laphroaig is the best of recommendations for you or I – but it is quite a good place to be! 😉
My Whiney Bitch mode seems to have kicked in today. When nothing seems quite good enough. When I don’t seem quite good enough.
I lost 6lbs today and I guess I should be thrilled. That’s 16lbs in two weeks. It’s a good result.
I have had good results before though. So I am not over the moon about it as I don’t want to get complacent. I have a lot of work to do and don’t want to give my warped little mind any leeway to stray. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a good result – I know that – but I am just not shouting about it and beaming from ear to ear as I know that it’s a drop in the ocean compared to what I still have to do.
I told you I was in Whiney Bitch mode! 😉
I am not going to write a huge amount either tonight – as I keep writing and deleting…writers block.
Actually, it’s probably got more to do with an irritating cock of a man that I have to work with rather than writers block! 😉
I have to get it off my chest – I have worked my arse off on a project for him for the past 7 months. I was close to securing what he wanted – which nobody in the company thought was achievable – yet I had done it. And today he told me that he is not going ahead with it. There is nothing more fucking annoying to me than somebody wasting my time. Quite how I managed to stay calm – I must have something superhuman going on today…
I supposed I should just chuck it in the Fuckit Bucket and move on…but I am a point-prover at times and I cannot let this one go. He has been on at me for such a long time to find him a solution to a problem that the company have had for over a decade, and one that many other companies in our field face – and I have found that solution – and now he is willing to let it slide. I understand his reasoning, but it doesn’t make him right – as his reasoning is wrong!
My brain is now working overtime to see how I can go about convincing him that he is a cock and that I am right! 🙂
The thing is – I could invoice another company for this work and net myself about £50k – I am quite tempted to send an invoice to him for my time but I only do that when I have successfully delivered a project…although I have in a way I guess. I might add a ‘Fuckwit Surcharge’ to it too! 😉
I think I will go and watch something violent on TV and imagine his face on screen – that usually works! Whisky usually works too – but as I am all out of that I have had to settle for the whine…apologies! 😉
My food today has been good – smoked salmon and boiled eggs with spinach and cherry tomatoes for breakfast after weigh-in, with Greek yogurt and raspberries with nuts for my later lunch, and then I cooked some celeriac chips tonight with roast chicken and had some pan-fried button mushrooms with red onion and tenderstem broccoli:
I also lifted some weights today which was pretty cool – it felt good…but I’ll write about that later in the week when I am not in this strop!
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