I am not a particularly religious person, although I did go to Sunday school and church as a child and went to a CofE primary and secondary school, but I don’t really celebrate Easter although I do understand the religious folklore / meaning behind it. As I am trying to promote healthy eating amongst family members, this meant that I didn’t buy eggs either – but will be instead treating my niece and nephew to a day out during the holiday.
Plus, they’ve already got far too many eggs anyway! And my Mum, Sister and Brother in Law are all Slimming World followers…and my Dad and his partner should be, so I have been a real let-down this Easter…no eggs, no hot-cross buns, no cakes with chicks and mini eggs on top. Instead, I decided to reflect on the year so far and to think about all of the good things that have happened.
In terms of shiny stickers, I have been awarded my 8.5st, my 9st, my 9.5st, my 10st, my 10.5st and my 11st certificates, and was also crowned ‘Greatest Loser’ for my group. This was a particularly proud moment as I stepped up in front of everyone to receive this award…when even standing up for a few seconds used to cause me pain and so my awards would always be delivered to me by the consultant! The lovely flowers I was given lasted ages too, and I was also given a certificate for a free week to put towards my countdown – the prepay method that I prefer, as it helps to motivate me to go to class…and my consultant knows this and thought I would prefer that to a book.
A Slimmer of the Month shiny was give to me in January, and I also have three Slimmer of the Week shiny’s too. So far this year I have lost 36.5lbs, which is an average loss of 2.8lbs per week…not bad really…although as ever, I would like that figure to be higher! More importantly I have managed to achieve my Bronze and Silver Body Magic awards – these mean so much to me, as this time last year I was practically immobile and would not be able to move without being in pain and without my heart racing. I am now aiming for my Gold award and have achieved two weeks towards this so far.
In general terms I feel this year has been fabulous for a number of reasons which relate to the support network I have developed. I made a promise to myself to write a blog post each day in order to record my thoughts and feelings, along with having a picture record of what I had eaten. This has really helped me – not only to keep me occupied, which it does, but to help me focus and to get my thoughts out there…rather than letting them play on my mind. It seems to make more sense when I write it down, and it also highlights how silly some of my worries are, yet it does highlights areas for me to focus on. Plus, I love talking, so this is another form of communication that I enjoy! Above all else, it keeps my hands busy doing some thing other than shovelling food into my mouth.
The Twitter activity is also great. I do find it hard to keep up at times, and so never knowingly ignore people…but if I have done this then I apologise! My following on there has grown, as have my groans at some of the things I see written…mainly about crazy eating plans or mental exercise habits. But this is teaching me to restrain myself and not to just jump in and try and give advice – people have to find their own way at times…although sometimes I can’t resist! I follow some truly amazing and inspirational people and get a lot out of reading the random Tweets of others…it is a real insight and it also highlights that I am not alone in some of my habits and thoughts. It is amazing really that I already think of some of the people on there as friends, when I’ve never met them! I don’t think they realise how much support they give and how much it means, and I hope to meet up with a few people this year.
And whilst I am on the social media bandwagon, Facebook has been great and the number of people ‘liking’ the page has grown too. It really gives me some focus, as I like to ensure new content is on their daily and to try and have some interaction with likeminded people. It is another way of recording my journey and I like to stick motivational comments and pictures on there, along with recipes that I can look back on for inspiration during tough times. So the blog, Twitter and Facebook is a rather productive use of time for me…especially whilst I am having this career break, as it uses up minutes in the day that I would previously have spent dreaming about crisps!
My biggest achievement this year so far has been going to the park. It might sound really silly but it meant so much to me! You all know how much of a struggle life was in terms of mobility, but it was much more than that which kept me hiding away. The comments of people can be really hurtful, and a throwaway comment shouted out of a car window at me can really affect me. I used to just brush this off and gesticulate wildly at the offending eejit…but there is only so much a person can put up with, so I began to hide away. I would go to work and to the horses, and this was it – the rest of the time I would just shut the world out. I stopped contact with friends as I didn’t want them to see how bad my situation was. I made excuses not to go out. I even missed a friends wedding. So a simple outing to the park with my niece and nephew was the most uplifting experience I have had in a long while…and no, Ann Summers products don’t come close to putting the same smile on my face…although a close second! I loved the sense of getting my life back, and I loved feeling that I was starting to believe that I was worth it. I have been back to that little park twice since, and am hoping to go a couple of times during the holidays too.
My other half was also nearly in tears at the stables on Friday night, bless him. I was helping bring the horses in and they always go a little bit wild at this point in time. Partly due to the fact that their feet are on better ground in the yard, and so they like to have a little prance around, but also as they know it’s dinner time. We have to let them into the yard in a certain order, but this can be a little chaotic and my other half is not confident around them…who can blame him really? With two massive horses weighing in at over 3/4 of a tonne, and another at over 1/2 a tonne…and a little Shetland who can still pack a punch when needed, it is not a job for the feint hearted. It is usually my Mums job to do the night shift, but we were covering for her, and so I had to step up and deal with it. This involved a fair bit of walking – bearing in mind I had forgotten my wellies and was wearing crocs of all things – and also a lot of ‘presence’…they need to know you are there and that they can’t just plough through you. All usually well-behaved and gentle, they get a little gung-ho at times but I managed to deal with it all without any incidents. This was what made him teary I think, as he knew that this time last year, or even a few months ago, I would never have been able to stand for such a long time and deal with them as I did. Which is a shame really, as they are my horses…but I am where I am, and I am doing something about it!
My health conditions have also improved – my blood sugar levels are now normal, and although I am still taking medication for this, I am hoping to either reduce or come off this altogether at some point this year. My ‘down below’ issues are also improving and I have been able to trial a reduction in this medication too, and the improvement in the scan results was really pleasing. Both of these conditions have improved as a direct result of my weight loss.
Right, I think I will finish up there. After reading the article in the new Slimming World magazine about making gratitude your attitude, I thought it was nice to think about the good things! I am really happy with this year so far and just wish to keep this momentum going so that I can reflect again in a few months and see what else has happened. Let’s get onto the usuals then…
It was a strange morning – I thought I would wake up feeling tired due to the clocks changing, but actually woke up an hour early…or two hours early by yesterday’s times…and felt great! So it was nice to get ready for the horses at my own pace, and we soon headed off to see them. Oh, I also bought my first Christmas pressies of the year too this morning; an email with details of an Easter flash sale saw me buying loads of lovely sets of books for my niece and nephew, and my other half’s nephew too. The were real bargains – the whole collection of Little Miss books for £20 for example, so I was very impressed. Although I do need to restrain myself this month as my text donations for Comic Relief come off this months phone bill…and I forced my other half into texting too! Anyway, we headed off to the horses, with the promise of a roast lamb dinner at my Mums house to look forward to this afternoon. The horses were tended to, and we drove over to Mums and spent a lovely afternoon there. I really don’t like driving after a meal out, and just wish I could be teleported home, to my sofa and fleecy blanket, with a full tummy! The Sky TV is still buggered, and I refuse to give in and re subscribe, so we are trying to watch TV Catch Up instead…plus, I ordered loads of books for me too this morning – I am a book junkie and ordered sixteen! – so I can always read books instead of watching TV. A quiet evening looms!
Breakfast: Apple and blueberry porridge (6.5 syns) with two scan bran (2 syns) crushed in with Alpro Almond milk (2 syns), and a banana.
Lunch: Roast lamb, carrots, broccoli, roast courgette and onion, green beans, sugar snap peas, cauliflower, syn free roast potatoes, mint sauce, and gravy (5 syns).
Dinner: Pizza pitta – with cheese, tomato purée, oregano, red pepper and mushrooms. (HEB and HEA).
Snacks: Two packets of Snack a Jacks (9 syns).
I have had a wonderful food day today! I decided to mix my scan bran into my porridge, instead of topping it with cheese, and it tasted lovely – 10.5 syns…but fairly healthy ones as per my plan. Lunch was immense and was cooked by my lovely Mum. I turned down broccoli and cauliflower cheese in favour of plan stuff, and had loads of veggies; it was really filling and I ended up leaving two roasties…definite progress! The pizza pitta was gorgeous, and not too heavy after the mammoth roast dinner – I toasties the pitta and then filled it with my HeA cheese, mushrooms, peppers, tomato purée and oregano. I have had 24.5 syns today – eek! I really hope this increasing of syns works in my favour…I can’t see it, but I am going with it for now…I just hope my consultant is ready for Tuesdays tantrum if it backfires!
Exercise: 15 minutes Boxercise, 15 minutes Dancercise, 15 minutes Sit-ups – 45 minutes in total.
I think this is the first Easter Sunday that I have ever exercised on! I remember turning up at the gym only to find it closed one year…so I went home and ate an egg instead. Hopefully this is a sign of things to come!
Happy Easter Sunday to you all…and for those of you who indulged, get back on the wagon tomorrow!
Weight Loss Bitch xxx
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