Project ‘Bingo-Wing Blitz’ began today! No, not just because it’s a fresh year, but because I’ve been pondering life as a smaller person recently. It can be hard as a life-long fattie to imagine anything different; for example when I’d lost 8st a few years ago with Slimming World I didn’t feel any different and ended up, for one reason or another, putting it all back on plus another 10st. I realise now of course how much difference losing that amount of weight made and so whilst I’m on the journey to Kate Moss-ness, I’m trying to visualise how things may be and recognise and record the differences along the way.
I mentioned in a recent blog that I’d found it much easier to have a shower, and was able to spend a lot longer in there and even followed it up with a much deserved pampering session. To add to this I used my treadmill today for the first time in a while – I was a bit too heavy for it before and it made a strange noise, so I wanted to lose a bit more weight first…as the last time I had one, I wore the motor out on it and set it on fire!! Getting onto the treadmill last time was a mission in itself, with the step up onto the platform causing me to have to haul myself up…today however I managed it in a fairly spritely manner (well, as spritely as you can get at just under 35st!). Once on board, it was my other half that pointed out that I managed to fit between the side bars on it a lot easier, giving me some room to manoeuvre which made it a lot comfier. When it came to the duration, I felt comfortable going past the 3 minute mark and walked for 5 minutes at a slight incline. My heart was beating pretty fast, but last time I used it I nearly passed out at 3 minutes and my lower back had gone numb. This time, I felt like I could have continued for a little longer and there was no back pain – I was a smiley but out of breath person! So all of these little things add up and by keeping a record I’m hoping to recognise the achievements along the way and really appreciate the health benefits that Slimming World is bringing me. I am just very conscious that I get very competitive with myself, so I won’t be setting any majorly challenging goals, even if I feel I could achieve them, as I don’t have a Paramedic on hand now that my Aunt divorced the one I did have, and don’t want to push myself too much to prove a point and end up keeling over with the look of a Ribena Berry!
Back to Operation Bingo-Wing Blitz…prior to my treadmill mini session I also completed a 5 minute section of my BodyPump DVD, which had gone missing but turned up during our recent decluttering session much to my delight. I say delight because I genuinely love BodyPump and, back when I’d lost my previous chunk of weight, I used to go to the classes at the gym. Given that I find it hard to stand for even small amounts of time I wasn’t sure how I’d manage the BodyPump, but I found a section that I thought I could also complete sitting down if all else failed. So with the volume turned up I picked up my weights bar and assumed the position! I managed over 2.5 minutes standing and the rest seated, although my poor arms were on fire…I think I’d put too heavy a weight on it! I persevered though and got through the little section. I’m trying to reduce the need for saggy skin surgery – hence Operation Bingo-Wing Blitz – by using lots of moisturiser, drinking plenty of water, eating good amounts of protein and exercising, which is the advice that Plastic Surgeons give to potential clients…so I thought if I start this now then it might help me in the future. I’m not deluded enough to think that I won’t need some form of skin removal, and I’m certainly not deluded enough to think that by taking the steps I mentioned I will spring into the shape of someone with fantastically supple and toned skin…but every little helps! If it reduces the amount of surgery I have to have then that’s all good, and will save me some money too and leave me with some to spend on nice new clothes! Plus, in a way, the scars and wibbly bits are me and document the journey that I’ve been on with my incredibly forgiving body; I just don’t want to feel like my efforts have been wasted when I have a body that looks like a deflated hot-air balloon…yes, I am doing this for health reasons, but I don’t want children running away in terror if I decide to get my bod out on the beach at some time in the distant future.
My New Years Resolution – although I do keep changing my mind about them – is to be nicer to myself and to learn to love myself again. So taking the time to invest in my future through diet, exercise and well being – or pampering as I like to call it – is going to be a big part of this. The second part of my resolution fits with this too, and that’s to try and blog more in order to record the ups and downs more closely, but more so to document the progress and my increasing happiness along the way! So I’m afraid you’ll have to put up with more of my ramblings, although they may be shorter, and I’m going to try and get all technological on your asses and see if I can finally work out how to add some pictures to my blogs!! I’m going to add some regular features too, such as the food I’ve eaten along with any exercise I’ve done.
So here goes…
Breakfast: Banana and a clementine
Lunch: Omelette made with onions, mushrooms, smoked ham, 3 eggs and cheese
Dinner: Soup made with chicken, carrot, celery, onion, pasta and stock
I tend to eat fairly light the day before weigh-in…don’t know why really, just some silly superstition I guess!
Exercise: 5 minutes BodyPump and 5 minutes on treadmill
Positive ponderings: All of the above really! It’s been a really positive day for a number of reasons and I really feel that I can do this now! I also managed to reach my feet for second time today and plastered them in cream before sticking on little slipper socks…a small thing to some, but a big deal to me as my feet look like something that should be in a glass box in the Natural History Museum. I’m trying to get them looking and feeling good so that I can progress with my walking without having the horrid leather like skin and deep cracks that hurt when I stand on my feet!
So thank you my lovelies for reading this and for sticking with me throughout my journey; your support means a lot! I hope that 2013 brings you all wish for.